tis the season...

to be disappointed. every year my friends and i have a holiday party. we
started it when most of us were in college, when we couldn't bear the
thought of the holidays without one another. i always made the turkey,
someone else was responsible for mashed potatoes, broccoli casserole,
stuffing, cranberry sauce, and dessert. some years we got fancy, some years
we didn't. it evolved over the years from an event with the people we saw
frequently to the one time we all got together every year. this year, for
the first time in 7ish years, we aren't doing it. i work two weekends out
of every month, and there is no time when enough of the key players can make
it that i also have off. i was excited, too, becuase i was to be hosting. i
am more upset, though, because of two things. one, it took so long to find
a date because my job held on to our december schedules until last friday
(the schedule started on sunday). that's obnoxious. two, when i finally
knew that i could do it, and i sent out the e-mail to everyone who usually
comes, only two people responded. i understand that people are busy, and i
totally get that this is late notice. i'm more upset about the job schedule
thing. it's just that my roommates and i were also looking for a day to do
a housewarming, and since everything was so delayed (first my schedule, then
peoples' response) the one day that we could have done it is no longer a
possibility, so we are going to have to transfer it to january.
the moral of this long "i want to have a party!" rant is that it's hard to
work weekends and maintain a life. i feel lonely. i do stuff on my days
off, but i miss my friends. i love working only three days a week, but i
have a hard time motivating myself on the other days. and on the days that
i work, i only work. i am too exhausted to do anything else.
this was long and whiny. i might write more about work and positive things
tomorrow.

wow...it's been a long time

and i can barely prop my eyes open with toothpicks, but i had to do
something to jump over the threshold of blogging and not blogging. i wonder
if threshold is supposed to have two h's. oh well...sorry to my 2-3 friends
who used to occasionally check my blog and who i'm sure have long since
forgotten the address. it got crazy busy there.
i have many, many, many things i want to write about, including my job, my
new apartment, my new twenty year plan, and my thoughts on cockroaches in
hospital emergency room's (i guess in new york, it comes with the territory)
but right now i have to go to sleep. 37 hours in 3 days is no joke. i know
people do it all the time, but i am so, so not used to it. but i really,
truly, am going to return to the blogging. i can't wait. maybe tomorrow.