Represent

Today we signed our papers to be represented by a union. There was a video,
and our union rep gave us a bunch of information, but people were talking
during the video and she was talking while I was filling out
papers--unfortunately, I don't multitask well. I think I should feel
excited to be part of the long tradition of labor organization and
collective bargaining, but currently I'm just annoyed that they take $37 out
of every paycheck and I have to go through this huge hassle to get
reimbursed for my dentist visits.
I have been insanely, crazily, unspeakably tired lately. I have no idea
what is causing it. I feel like I am seeing things through a veil, like I
have earplugs in, or like I am always slightly drunk. I should clarify that
this is not when I am actually in the clinical area, but when I am at home,
on the train, in the classroom, and pretty much anywhere that is not my
hospital's emergency room. I have no idea what is causing this, but if I
had to guess I'd say probably mono. Or I am just spending all of my alert
time on the floor. Either way I'd like a little more energy, please. I've
started eating better. At some point I'd like to exercise again, but
currently I am too tired.
I found an apartment. I love it, mostly, but I am also sort of convinced
that it sucks and I might hate it. I hope the former is the truer
sentiment. I have been fantasizing about vases, flowers, plants, and
candles. I love to decorate. Our landlord is a little crazy and doesn't
want us to put anything up on the walls except for with these weird hanging
kits, but I kind of don't mind paying for any damages. I want my house to
be pretty.
It's almost the season of the many new years, so I've been thinking about
resolutions. Last year I worked on myself mentally, and I think I've gotten
to a pretty stable, happy state. This year, with money, I think I am going
to work on taking care of myself better. That is, when I have paid back
some people, and I have some money in the bank, I'd like to get a massage, a
personal trainer, some accupuncture, and maybe take a pottery class. Maybe
if I had more restorative activities, I wouldn't be so tired.
Alright, I think I have stayed awake long enough and can go to sleep without
waking up every hour on the hour throughout the night.